diary entry 77

 yesterday i hung out all day. was super down bad to get high so i took this muscle relaxer that was given to my dog before she passed away, and i genuinely retrieved the (empty) bottle of clonazolam i got in 2022. it was dumped out then but i added some water to the bottle and shook it and drank it, as well as licked the rim and inside the cap (it tasted chemically sweet). didnt feel much. hung out but managed to get my old milligram scale + 20 4-aco-dmt gummies i got in 2024 + a bottle of seroquel and hydroxyzine and some old weed i ordered from a site before they got sued (dont ask how i got these).

when my mom got home from church we went to a restaurant downtown. i didnt get booze because my stomach hurt (threw up pure acid bile when my mom left for church) and i got chicken strips and fries. my mom sorta irritated me during the dinner she was traumadumping and i checked my phone for ONE second and she got on my ass about it. when we got home i immediately got sick.. but i had leftovers so i ate them later that night.

i took 5 of the 4aco gummies + hella antipsychotics (YES i know they cancel each other out/antipsychotics dull trips but whatever) and smoked some weed afterwards. i started sketching and lining an idea i had for art too (i finished it today!) i felt really good and dreamy and laid in bed listening to some songs i liked from "friends& - folx" while half awake. i got food a bit later

went to bed and got up and mainly dicked around. i made my bed and hung out. my mom was goona take me practice driving later on in the day so i read more of the drivers ed manual and took notes. i also did my weekly report for unemployment claim stuff (i never got contacted back about my job interview i had at the pizza place... ugh) im Hoping i get the check tomorrow. i also did a commission for M really quick, $15.

however shortly before we left for the school parking lot to practice my mom went around downstairs closing the windows (it was 56F degrees out today so we had the windows open to air the house out) and my brothers room was soaked with a lot of water and the window wouldnt close. turns out the ice line/waterline from the new dishwasher mightve caused that. it really stressed my mom out and she started scaring me on the phone with my dad about the mess.

but then we Did leave for the parking lot and i drove around in my deceased aunt's car she had. its a good car. i did really well! just drove circles and practiced parking 3 times. the 3rd time i did it Perfectly.. then we went to dollar general and i got a beer and a lot of snacks.

got home a bit ago making a pizza now. tomorrow im going out with my mom to laconia for her back appointment then we need to drive an hour for a haircut appointment for her. pretty stoked 

O is coming over on wednesday im excited abt that ... hopefully florida happens this upcoming weekend also...