diary entry 89

 i had the dentist today and got up and felt depressed. i overdid it with the benadryl last night. i took 500mg over the courseof the night (usually i take under 200mg) and a hell of a lot of THC gummy goodness because i was depressed and ruminating over shit.

went to the dentist and i have 3 cavities and it would cost almost $1000 to get fillings because i got kicked off the dental insurance after turning 23. my mom said we arent going to see that dentist anymore though because it seems like they claim u have cavities to milk money out of you (she said they said she had 3 cavities when she never gets them, along with my brother) soooo shrugs.

then she had the back doctor. she angrily told me not to get bullshit drugs because she found the empty packet of 7OH i had on my bed and i found it in the kitchen last night. swiped it up and hid the packaging in my room though. i got sushi and ate 3 of the 9 rolls an dthen gave my mom the rest

we got ice coffee and dunkin donuts and that cheered me up and lifted my mood a bit. also got a new nicotine vape (i had gotten my unemployment check and had $79 when i woke up. now i have less)

went to walmart and got some food and shit. didnt buy any booze despoite wanting to

tomorrow i have my job interview at 9:30 AM i hope it goes well because i have FCL in like. 2 weeks. and yea

im thinking heavily about my ocs today. i wanted to draw them but my ADHD ass brain is like. putting it off. ughhh

im not gonna get into the whole schematics but i might have to cut off someone ive known for almost 10 years on and off. he wasnt very nice to me growing up honestly and he fucking tortured my friend when they dated for 2 years basically as well. shits rough. im still appalled by all  of it.

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