diary entry 104

 sorry no talk for a few days, just been working, sleeping, drawing, getting stoned, and whatnot. i took the adderall i got from krista the other night on top of a fuckton of weed and 7OH and drew liek 4 drawings and was up till like 7 am. it was a grand old time and i loved it. been talking to krista regularly too, they live in the same state as me by the town where i work at, but they can only drive a motorcycle not a car. i wanna meet up w them again eventually, do adderall together, they offered me more in the future and to take it with me together eventually. would be so cool

i have worked 3 shifts since i got back from FCL, worked 2-5 monday, 3-7 wednesday, 4-8 today. all of them have been good! today was especially good; i didnt have to scrub the floor but i kept busy, managed to speak over the intercom a few times on my own (!!!), learned how to do markdowns, practiced signing "happy birthday!" in frosting, and even took a cake order on my own! its been great. i clocked out and went to buy a bottle of booze though, and it took soooo long cuz the lady took forever to check my passport and the guy in front of me took so long despite only having 3 items. but its okay. i also threw up a bit before i clocked in but its okay also.

got paid last night around 1:30 AM (i didnt sleep till like 4 AM), only $131 but i sent M the $50 i owed it for the fursuit head, and GRAHAM KARTNA DROPPED A REMASTER OF AN OLDASS ALBUM HE MADE AS A CASSETTE!!! yes i bought it, even though its not my favorite by him... gotta keep on top of his physicals... i love how he always manages to drop physicals when i get a paycheck lmao

oh ALSO i got a ticket for the The Amazing Digital Circus finale thats showing in theaters! while i stayed up all night on adderall, i spent OVER 30 MINUTES getting the ticket for the portsmouth theater. first it took FOREVER to find an available seat (i kept picking seats that SAID they were available, then it said it wasnt available, and i kept getting kicked off the site and it was lagging horrifically), then i had to get N to send me $5 for it too because i was $2 short. BUT I GOT IT!!! not seeing it on debut date; im seeing it june 5 at 9:45 PM. super stoked!

tomorrow is portsmouth, likely selling a tonnn of cds at bullmoose haha. i wanna go to the asian grocery store also. RIP fox run mall frfr

i got some art trades to do, so im gonna work on them after dinner! we're having spaghetti and meatballs for dinner~

my friend recommended me an album, Bodysongs by body gold i think? shit was Immaculate. and krista recommended me an album too today and im listening to it right now. trying to clock in 1000 album ratings on RYM by the end of the year, almost at 900.

my crush on this internet discord dude whos fraysexual is NOT going away. i wanna talk to him more but he works at night and is 3 hours behind me,, aaaaa

its been slowly getting warmer out,...... suuuuuper excited for this summer, this summmer bout to be as a good as 2019 summer (i was 17, neck deep in the "smile for me" fandom and doing acid and other drugs CONSTANTLY and always making kandi summer 2019. it was the best summer ive had , next to summer 2024 when i lived in arizona with F and did adderall 24/7)

next paycheck i get next thursday $50 will go to M then im getting an OC commission. i wanted to get one SO bad this week  but ultimately decided not to because if i need a new vape or something id be screwed.

 what else??? well, i didnt buy dxm even though ive wanted to since before FCL. my job has 5 boxes of grape delsym for 50% off, and i keep not buying it. i WANT it, dont get me wrong, but 1. grape delsym is disgusting, 2. it lasts too long and 3. i dont wanna throw up from it. i almost got a 300mg DXM pill pack at work today, but it was $16 (!!!!!!) which is INSANE.

been thinking about my friend i lost contact with frequently, his name was euclid when i knew him. we spent summer 2019 VCing constantly and essentially joined at the hip, and he lived in nova scotia. we planned to meet up in september 2019, but that didnt happen. we lost contact when my discord in 2022 was hacked. i miss him so fucking much still. i wish i still had ocntact with him so bad.

welll, my mom just texted me that dinner is done. im gonna eat and let my weed gummy kick in. until next time...