diary entry 106

​slept really good last night. fell asleep within 15 mins last night thanks to my medications being refilled. woke up groggy but had work 2-5

one of my longtime on-and-off friends cut me and 2 other mutual friends off while we were all asleep. i'm not mad at him at all, more so worried because he's been dealing with a lottttt of mental stuff recently. i hope he's okay. i didn't freak out as bad over it as i expected.

worked 2-5, met my older coworker i hadn't met yet, did what i needed to do. we didn't have to scrub the floor which was good; i just mopped.

i got my schedule for this week, working 20 hours total and all of my shifts are 4-8 PM. pretty stoked

my mom wants me to try to get time off of work so we can go to florida soon, but the problem is we don't have a set date yet, and i need to ask for schedule changes at least 2 weeks in advance so i'm not sure what i'm going to do. 

the half-off delsym temptation finally broke through. i ended up buying a bottle of grape delsym. they were 5oz, not the 3oz, which surprised me. i got a bit paranoid about it because i think O's girlfriend saw me looking at dxm products and checking out my half off delsym. she was extremely unhappy with the fact i did ketamine before, so it had me paranoid. 

i got home from work, watched more mouse PI gameplay. dicked around and had to unfollow an insta mutual for being pro-AI. right as i was texted dinner was done (grilled chicken, salad, rice pilaf. it was so good) i drank my delsym before going up. this was 30 mins ago so nothing has happened yet.

my goals for tonight's trip is just to listen to music, likely meditate and manifest to binaural beats. i'll see

i work 4-8 tomorrow. my only days off this week are wednesday and friday, but it's okay because if we go to florida i need some dough. have $19 left after today, but next paycheck is thursday and i have $15 from depop pending.

i feel pretty good all things considered. tonight is good.