diary entry 99

​had my first day of new grocery store bakery job today... had to be there at 10 AM so i got up around 8:30 and showered and brushed my teeth.

since ive had a bakery job before i did a quick store tour with the store main manager lady. and got direct deposit set up (ill be getting my first paycheck next thursday) and did some computer training. the main manager lady praised me because i did so much training on the computer so fast LOL

then i had a 30 minute lunch. O was there today!!! he gave me a big hug and he redyed his hair and it looked Great!!! and then after my lunch i went to the bakery to be shown the ropes

my bakery manager is sooo sweet and nice. i already knew how to do a lot but i got trays with frozen bread and cookies prepared really fast and she complimented me. i was originally scheduled 10-1 today but i stayed an extra 2.5 hours to be shown how to do stuff. and im getting good pay for it!!

i work 2-7 tomorrow then have the weekend off for FCL, and then next week i have a few 3 hour shifts.

i also informed her about how im going on vacation later this month and she was okay with it.

after work my mom picked me up and she went to the christian thrift shop and the other grocery store and i got wendy's chicken tenders and fries... so yummy

i also got a 1.5 liter strawberry buzzball for $25... my last unemployment check deposited and i have $13 pending from depop so after the money pends i'll have a grand total of $120 in my bank account for fcl and i have $130 in cash for the con also... awesome

my mom is picking up my testosterone script tomorrow while im at work i think

uhhh i got home and started drinking. i'm jut hanging out on my phone now listening to music. feeling a bit depressed tbh

i think....,,, i have a crush on someone i barely know. again. this guy. from the banana hill server who i don't know what they look like, name, or even pronouns. but they saw my website where i listed being fraysexual and they were like "yea im fraysexual too i think" so i added them on discord and we talked for a bit last night, mainly about music. they're 20 and love hylics (game) also and idk what i feel but its kinda of a gay feeling i think. i wanna get to know them more.

i almost bought a bottle of benadryl today (i thought my new job would stock benzedrex but sadly they don't...) and i didn't but i kinda wish i did. even though i really don't need to take it for the rest of my life considering im already getting dementia when im older due to benadryl. ughhhhh

i got home and started some laundry loads because i wore these cargo jeans to work today that were too big and against the dress code but all my favorite jeans were dirty. so i washed a load and have it in the dryer right now, then loaded another load in the wash and shit. that'll be done soon

i also started Properly packing for FCL i found the duffel bag i thought i lost...

i drank a bit after getting home im really exhausted despite dleeping 8 hours or so im gonna try to go to bed at 9 tonight

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