diary entry 164

​UGHHHHH i went to work on monday and the fucking woman who wrote me up before pissed me off SOOOOO bad she like. made me "block"/front product and when i did it she was like "Actually, You Did It Wrong." and she took me to the. bread aisle and spent 10 mins explaining it to me while a kid was whining nearby. i was gonna just leave 30 mins early cuz i finished everything early and even scrubbed the sinks but she wouldn't let me. i did the bread and checked my phone for 2 mins Literally because my mom was texting me that she was gonna be late + going to a restaurant for dinner and she saw me and gave a dirty look. then i had literally 2 mins left so i looked at the ramen aisle and she GOT ON MY ASS ABOUT JT and pissed me off soo fucking bad. my parents picked me up and i was so mad. i texted my manager asking if i could have tuesday (the next day) off because of it + i am ALSO so tired and worn out from working 5 days in a row. she said gale was working so it's not a big deal and she was nice about it. i NEED to call HR soon and ask for accommodations, like more breaks and shit.

SO i didn't go in yesterday. i spent 2-3 hours on a NSFW drawing for a trade, got the HR phone number for my job (it wasn't easily available on google? i had to call 3 numbers about it. wtf)

my mom went to Martha's Vineyard yesterday and won't be back till saturday, so my dad and i are planning to get rid of a ton of clothes because my mom demands that she goes thru shit if i try to donate it and will literally refuse letting me donate some shit because "it can be sold online!!" but literally trying to sell on depop is like pulling teeth. i put 3 things up for sale and sold 1, but im only getting $8 from it. dude. 

i had a lottttt of anxiety yesterday, likely alcohol WDs. and i kept hitting my disposable which Really didn't help. i did end up drinking some vodka but AAAAAAAAAA

TODAY. i got up at 7 AM for My Fuckint College Orientation. but i thought it was at 8:30 AM but it was Actually 9:30. so i went to the gas station and got a bagel sausage egg cheese. it was good. i went back and got checked in and stuff, and my dad went home temporarily because it was like 3-4 hours long. I GOT my student ID with my chosen name, not my legal name, which gave me a LOT of gender euphoria!

the orientation was good, i gotta take a math placement test soon which will be Awful but whatever. i went with the art teacher along with some others going into the art program, got acquianted with the art classrooms (VERY big and cool!) and i was talking to the girl sitting next to me and she has cool pokemon tattoos! i ended up getting her discord!

on our way out to the cafeteria, THIS WOMAN MY AGE SAYS "oh i like ur hylics pin!" AND I WAS FLABBERGHASTED I WAS LIKE WHAAAAT U KNOW WHAT HYLICS IS?! And she was like "yea ive liked it since it came out! i love rpgmaster games!" AND TOLD ME SHE LIKES YUME NIKKI TOO WTFFFFF

so me and 5 other art students went to the cafeteria cuz they had sandwiches and stuff (however i didn't eat because i had my bagel sandwich like 2 hours before But i got a gatorade. the pricing for drinks there is Soooo cheap omg) and we shot the shit, showed each other our art, basically just kicked it. It was AWESOME because i Do Not socialize irl much these days, considering R works a lot (started full time hardware store job recently actually) and O is busy a lot too

i left after a bit and smoked a cig and my dad came, told him about the day, super stoked. we went to the vape store and i got some booze and a new vape. the new vape didn't have a flavor listed on the packaging but tasted JUST like this kids toothpaste i used to eat as a kid

i got home not too long ago and put my clean clothes away from the living room, and im about to organize my top shelf of trinkets and move the shit so i can put my CDs and cassettes there instead hehe

OH ALSO i was texting N today and he called me BABE and i got sooooo excited and sappy. <333333 heheheeheh

i go back to work on friday which is FINE by me i needed 3 days off anyways. i am This Close to asking for 20-25 hours a week instead of 30 even tho i STILL NEED TO SAVE UP TO SEE N!!!!!!!

anyways Yuuuuup thats my life