Tuesday, January 6, 2026

diary entry 42

​haven't been doing much the past few days... i remade my friends server on discord because i haven't had a friends server since summer 2024 in arizona and i was nervous about making a new one but it's been really really fun! it makes me smile.

i worked on callie's commission a bit i lined it today

today i woke up really late i woke up past 1 PM and forgot i had my new first therapy appointment with my new therapist via telehealth but luckily i woke up in time to join it. it went well she was very nice i see her again on the 15th at 9 AM.

after the appointment i showered brushed my teeth and did my testosterone shot

yesterday the rehab i went to called me to ask about how i'm doing..... i was honest and was like "yea i've been smoking weed again but my mental health has been so much better and i've been able to hold down a job and real life friendships and i got a new in real life partner." and she was nice about it. so

i took the last of my weed gummies around 3:10 PM and now it's 4:26 PM

i'm seeing R tomorrow and i'm soooooooooo happy about it... today just feels like a big transitional day.. it kinda reminds me of early 2018 when i had the flu but was gonna see my (now ex) partner B soon at anime boston that year and i remember being in the jacuzzi tub with the flu delirious watching anime convention haul videos on my phone in the bath and thinking about it so euphorically.

i really really wish i could go to anthro new england this year but i'm broke :( i should've started saving sooner... ughhh whatever

getting paid on thursday i'm soooo excited

my job has been cutting down my hours -_- i hope i can stay but it doesn't look like that'll be the case. lame

that's about it i'm listening to "The Turlington Anarchists - RX Vanilla Basil" right now. probably gonna be on discord and reading bluelight trip reports for the rest of the day. signing off

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diary entry 169

​hell yea! got to sleep in because no work today! i was super productive today! i ate a banana, sketched out my art homework due on the 14th...