diary entry 43

​it took me SO long to fall asleep last night because i was sooooo excited for today... i cleaned off my floor a bit because i had crafting stuff all over it and took down my cory hanson shrine on my shelf because Truthfully i don't.  really care abt him too hard nowadays and needed the space for CDs... sigh

i woke up at 11 AM to my alarm and brushed my teeth and made my bed and called in for refills of my meds + testosterone! then i left for laconia around 12 with my mom

she had a massage appointment that was around an hour. i went to the corner store and got a 500mg pack of 7-hydroxymitragynine + pseudoinoxidyl tablets, and then i got an iced coffee and a ham sandwich. after that we picked up R from her house !!

i was soooo happy to see them!! we went back to my house and had a WONDERFUL! day!!

we cuddled and kissed and made out a lot... we watched the spongebob movie Sponge Out of Water (my first time watching it, she had already seen it a few times) and it was SOOOO good i loved it So Much... i laughed at it a bunch

after the movie we spooned and cuddled and kissed some more and chatted. i also took one of the 7OH tablets. then we watched up to episode 5 of smiling friends season 1... sooo good i hadn't seen it in sooo long. laughed a lot at it too

we Did do some uh. Coughs. Intimacy and it was Wonderful... i didn't have a Grand Finale on my end but it was REALLY good for them so i'm HAPPY about that!!!

what else... she went home around 7 i'm SO SAD ABOUT IT!!! i hope i can see them again soon......

the dry herb vaporizer i got recently was faulty but i emailed the site about it and they gave me $48 in store credit + free shipping on whatever i wanted... SO i got a Fuckton of legal THC cannabinoid gummies!!! for free!!!!!! soooo stoked. hoping i can get those easy without my mom getting the mail, but if she does get it it'll be fine but i'd Prefer having it myself..

the 7OH tablets i got are Good but they're very strong and made me nauseous a few times... and for dinner my mom made this uh. Nasty ass alfredo casserole thing. normally her food is Decadent but this was Not Good. it had cream cheese and was really gross. i took 1 bite and had to rush to the bathroom to projectile vomit in the toilet. after that i tried to eat more but Couldn't. so i made the last of the caesar salad and ate that. i wanted a regular alfredo dish so bad idk why she decided to try something new .. it's okay tho...

tomorrow i have a psychiatrist appointment then i have to leave for work immediately after, originally i was gonna work 11-5 but due to my telehealth appointment i am working 1-7 now. which is cool

My USB DJ turntable controllers are coming TOMORROW!!! AND IM GETTING PAID TONIGHTTTTTTT!!! I'm soooooooo happy... big plans incoming..!

not much else otherwise! just listening to music now... feeling Good as Fuck from the 7OH tablets and yeaaaa babyyyyy Today was like if Beautiful Flowers were a day... so joyous...