diary entry 84

​today i got up 12:30 because i took a low dose of propylhexedrine last night and stayed up till almost 4 am

today was my moms birthday!!! happy birthday mama

i got a job interview at the shaws O works at next week... also we are still friends he talked to me yesterday, i just can't go to his house.

i got Big Money today (a depop sale's profit pended into my bank acccount and i got my unemployment check). my mom brought me and her to laconia for a massage for her birthday and i walked around. i got a 1000mg pack of 7OH (5 200mg tablets) its a watermelon flavor but its lowkey yuckkkkk. and i got the last 3 benzedrex packs at walgreens. i walked around downtown for a While but it was pretty cold today and SUUUUUPER windy my nose was running and i was so cold. and my legs hurt too. after downtown laconia we went to an irish restaurant.. i got a mai tai fruity cocktail, a caesar salad and this DELICIOUS fucking sandwich it was like a turkey club but it was Different and top 5 sandwich ever... after eating tho i got nauseous and went outside without the car keys (i didn't wanna go back in the restaurant too because the smell was worsening my nausea) but it was 25F out and super windy i was shivering so bad i almost dropped my phone several times. but we got warmed up in the car

i'm going to keene and nashua for 2 nights tomorrow, after i have my unemployment virtual meeting with an unemployment counselor (it's required for me). i have my clothes packed, and toiletries, and packed my testosterone vial and alcohol swabs and needle stuff because i have shot day on friday and i am NOT waiting until i get home to do it. i need to pack my meds, ipad, chargers and gratitude journal before i leave. 

i got home and got settled, started a benzedrex extraction might dose in the morning. i took a little more than half of one of the 7OH tablets but it's really strong and i got nausea. didn't help i was drinking a big mikes hard lemonade also.. had to lay down and turn my heater off

i have a Lot of stuff this week incoming.. i'm a bit overwhelmed but we thug it out

also F texted me a new drawing he did and it was super cool!!

aaaaaaaa. i'll be sure to update while i'm having my mini trip