diary entry 119

 well i havent slept yet. its 2:10 pm.

i got home and ate dinner and started 2 benzedrex extractions in separate bottles. took 3 klonopin and after 20-30 mins of vigorous shaking i drank the first solution. yuck!

i proceeded to spend the night FINALLYYYY putting together the 3-5 GB of footage i took at the "being dead" liveshow in feb 2024 when i visited F and compiled it into one video and uploaded it to youtube. it took. 3 HOURS. first i had to import the vids to google drive, download the .zip, convert the .mov's to .mp4 because sony vegas hates .mov, but i had 13 files and the online converter only allowed up to 10 before u gotta pay. but i got it done. some clips rendered wrong annd i had to redo them. rendering took 2 hours also.

but anywyas

i ALSO fixated on lost media shit, specifically the nelipot fanime. i rmemeber the robot gym teacher from ep 2, and spent an hour or more going thru a wormhole to find content about the fanime (the person who made it got ran off the internet due to accusations from when he was a groomed kid. which is. Yea.) and the vids got deleted. a new user "owns" the fanime (iamb on toyhouse) however he sorta pulled a fast one doing payment plans for a character worth, i shit you not, $4k+. and he got a callout. so whatever. BUT I FOUND THE NELIPOT EPISODES ON NICONICODOUGA!!! proceed to spend almost an hour learning to download videos from NND (its just a japanese youtube) and got it. made a video where i spliced the clips of the robot gym teacher so the whole video was just her hahaha. ive been looking for the art of her for MONTHS now.

im almoat out of kpinssss sihghhhh... its okay. i shouldnt be doing this anywyas.

tHE BENZEDREX KEPT ME UP SO HARD. i drank 1 extraction then 4-5 hours later took the 2nd on impulse with kpins and felt INCREDIBLE. holy fucking shit.

i entered. So Many Art Trades With Others. BUT IM EXCITED

i started a new furaffinity today too and spent soooo long setting it up haha 

im pretty fucked up rn. sleep dep, at LEAST 6 klonopins 1mg staggered today, weed gummy sshit,  drinking a mixture of apple flavored whiskey and kosher grape juice. yeeeeehawwwww