diary entry 158

​went to weirs beach last night with my mom But there wasn't any fireworks... turns out they're not every saturday like they used to be. But we had a good time together! she had a massive fight with my dad before she left so she just came alone. we went and got some cocktails (i got 2 mai tai drinks) and some food (i got tenders and amazing fries) and she got fudge and i got an ice cream. we poked around some stores too. during dinner we talked about F and my type in men and i showed her a pic of maston and she was like Oh he's cute

i uploaded a stupid meme to youtube and they gave me a community strike for "endangerment to children"?????? and now i can't upload which is genuinely so fucking stupid

my chest binder Fucked my shit up i wore it for 9 hours straight and my left shoulder is Kinda in agony and when i woke up my chest hurt HORRIBLY. good lord

i couldn't fall asleep until 3 AM (i ran out of my olanzapine early AGAIN!!!) i drank a 10mg THC seltzer and had some watermelon vodka and dr pepper and passed out after. woke up Very tired but had to shower and get ready for work

started talking to this person from a nsfw server im in, spent most of today talking to them on and off. they said im "one of the most fascinating people" they've met LMAO. i told them about my drug use history and my ex and all kinds of shit and sent them my art. and what have you. they're dope

work today was better than the last few days, my manager and assistant manager were here for a bit. did set up, and set up 5 cases of frozen cookies then cleaned. listened to temples - volcano and TMP2 again while doing it.

calling brooke tonight after work, planning to buy booze on my way out. i work tomorrow then i have tuesday off. talked to F a bit today too, he just went to a star wars convention in dallas which was cool. 

i don't know if my dads cousin arrived yet because i heard there were storms in chicago where she had a layover or something idk but we'll see when i get out

i'm just sitting on the floor now and have 35 mins left or so. i cleaned pretty well today i think, got a lot of crap off the floor and mopped well. shit always makes me sweat crazy style because of my T and stuff

uhh not much else?? i hope i can draw tonight/have the motivation for that. and 5 days until i get a refill of memantine and Hopefully see if i can get on concerta... that'll make work a billion times better i think.

hi