diary entry 49

 today was REALLY good!

i managed to sleep for 8 hours, and woke up around 9:30 AM

i felt a bit better upon waking up, and took a shower, brushed my teeth for the first time in 3 days, and did my T shot. my T shot went very well today! but i didnt let the alcohol wipe stuff dry on my thigh first beforehand so it burnt a bit to inject but went well overall

i managed to eat a cup mac and cheese, banana, some chex mix and chicken noodle soup + crackers today 

i read more of "the psychonauts guide to the invisible landscape," talked in my discord server, and worked on M's commission... M's roommate Mac also wants to commission me 2 pieces... i managed to finish M's commission and he loved it!!

Planned Parenthood called me to change the time for my T level check on the appointment day, and i have my 3 hour neuropsych evaluation appointment right after work tomorrow...

i waited SO long for the mail today, and then it came at 3:21! i managed to grab the packages! however, there was a box, and i thought it was for me, but it was a FURBY ORNAMENT my mom ordered... eep

i got my weed gummies and dj controller turntable cable!!!

i downloaded rekordbox for djing (after i ate 2 gummies), but it corrupted as soon as it installed... so  i got VirtualDJ

YALL......... THE DJ CONTROLLER WORKS... oh my GOD best thing ive EVER bought next to my ipad.. i immediately got a $19/month license for VirtualDJ (i plan to cancel if i Have to tho) after confirming the controllers worked.. i had SO mcuh fun experimenting even though i didnt know what i was doing... i played around with a music mix i made originally in 2021 and i did one part SO flawlessly SOMEHOW that  i teared up in happiness...

i made a BIG love-based collage based on R today, for the animal collective the purple bottle live nightcored remix for youtube, and i cried out of happiness while making it... i do NOT cry much anymore. ive only cried out of sadness twice since late may 2025. but i DO tear up frequently in happiness/joy... weird...

i made a "quick" mix to experiment with my controller with, and did it in illegal sony vegas 14, and it ... wouldnt let me export as a .mp3 or .wav? so i rendered it as a .avi originally because i couldnt find the .mp4 render option (so i could render it then convert to .mp3) and uh. it took up 117 gigabytes of space on my laptop LOL??? so i deleted that then found the .mp4 option and rendered it as that

i TRIED using my new controller and djing for the AOTK server voice channels, but it wasnt going well like before... i quit 8 mins in and left sadly.. i still feel kinda embarrassed...

UMM what else.. MY MOM TEXTED ME SAYING SHE GOT MY MEDS REFILLED!!!!!!!!!! i took my zyprexa and mirtazapine earlier!!! sooooo happy

also my mom is out right now and bringing home a strawberry mint vape for me...

tomorrow i got work, 1-5, and i gotta get a bubble mailer for a traditional art commission shipment for callie...