diary entry 141

​well. things are gonnna be better and i am alive again and life is colorful

didn't quit my job, mom pushed me to stay so i am. went to manchester yesterday to get the dogs rabies shots and got dinner. it was okay but i kinda wish i stayed home

i'm finishing up work today and i worked with the manager and she was nicer today. put more effort into my shit too and whatnot

well i have a new partner!!! my friend max from the UK. i've known her since 2022 she's a fellow musician. she's bought nsfw fetish videos from me in the past and commissions and we've made music for each other and i even met her by chance irl when i visited london in 2023 and we hung out for a day. she gave me an aphex twin vinyl and TMP2 on vinyl. i had an autism meltdown in front of her but she understood. we've had feelings for each other a bit for a while and flirted a lot and i bit the bullet and asked her today if we could casually date and she was ecstatic abt it. idk how long i'll be with her for considering the distance and my mental health but it's made me so fucking happy. she's transfem, 21 and a stellar musician and we share a lot of mental health struggles and music we like. she has audhd too and she's so aaaaaaa. i think she's pined for me for a while and im just so. stoked. and now life has color again and im alive again

i might save up to fly her down near the end of the summer since london to boston tickets aren't The Worst priced and my mom knows she exists too so. i'm gonna get drunk and binge her music tonight..

i'm ALSO gonna work on my ep tonight too and i have tomorrow off and im gonna get a new bureau in my room

i got paid last night and bought a cd ive wanted and digital music and im gonna buy alcohol and cigarettes too and the new rhythm heaven game for my switch YAY

i work 4 days next week with reduced hours i hope that helps me

umm yes?????? lets fucking go?????? woohoooooo!!!